Brynlee hasn't nursed in two days. I didn't intentionally do that at first. I mean I have been wanting to wean her slowly, and I have been cutting back her feedings and replacing them with the sippy cup. But somehow I unintentionally didn't nurse her for almost two days when it hit me! She was over it. She wasn't asking for it and she was just fine every time I handed her her cup instead of me.
When I realized she was basically done nursing, it made me so sad. I just assumed I would be the one to decide when she was done. I wanted to call her over to me and feed her, because I knew she would nurse if I offered it. But really that would be dumb wouldn't it, to start nursing her after two days when she had clearly moved on. So I didn't, instead I sulked, with a pout on my face, and told Brad and Kayla "my baby doesn't need me anymore". I know that is not true. But it is how I feel. This will be the last baby I ever nurse, OUR LAST baby. And I know from watching Kayla how fast that they grow. And it does make me sad. But I will enjoy every moment that I have with my babies. Because I know they will only be that way once.
I love all the ages that our girls are at right now. I love where we are all at in our lives. I feel happy and sad all at the same time. Happy because I love life so much just how it is, and sad because I know it will change as they grow. But hopefully with change, will come new happiness and joy in each of the milestones that they hit in their lives.